Running On Low
I don’t know about y’all, but this past week was insane! From midterms to fall break and then more midterms – they never end – I felt like I was constantly running on low. Whether it be running out of time, money, sleep, or coffee, I just felt like I was grasping at thin air. Through the craziness, I was scrambling around trying to come up with that in the world to talk about on Sunday for a YoungLife club talk. I was racking my brain on what passage to cover, what stories I could incorporate from my own life, and finally settled on the well-known passage of Jesus feeding the five thousand. While it may sound elementary – I hadn’t spent much time on it since Sunday school – as I was delving into it I realized that it couldn’t be more relevant to us every day. It reads:
15 As evening approached, the disciples came to him and said, “This is a remote place, and it’s already getting late. Send the crowds away, so they can go to the villages and buy themselves some food.”16 Jesus replied, “They do not need to go away. You give them something to eat.”17 “We have here only five loaves of bread and two fish,” they answered.18 “Bring them here to me,” he said. 19 And he directed the people to sit down on the grass. Taking the five loaves and the two fish and looking up to heaven, he gave thanks and broke the loaves. Then he gave them to the disciples, and the disciples gave them to the people. 20 They all ate and were satisfied, and the disciples picked up twelve basketfuls of broken pieces that were left over. 21 The number of those who ate was about five thousand men, besides women and children. Matthew 14: 15-21.
While we thankfully probably aren’t worried about feeding 5,000 people on a day to day basis, I think we can all relate to how frantic Jesus and His disciples must have been feeling. Imagine after a long day being starving and realizing there is no way that everyone is going to be fed – there might not even be enough for you! Isn’t that just it though? The feeling of crap, I just can’t do it. Whether it’s worrying about bread and fish or not, aren’t we always worried that we won’t have enough? That we will come up short?
I’ve found that in college, I sometimes just feel like I’m starving for more – more time, more community, more opportunities, more of everything – because aren’t we always living in a little, or a lot, of fear that we just simply do not have enough to be satisfied? Or maybe it goes deeper into the fear that we ourselves just aren’t enough. I know I feel this way, and I know I’m not the only one. I can find myself running so low on energy, time, confidence sometimes that I feel like I don’t have anything left to give. I think this is how the disciples felt in that moment – low on energy, time, and not confident in providing for the people around them. Heck, they didn’t have nearly enough. But what they did do is present the little bit they had to Jesus and allowed Him to make it enough. Often times when I’m feeling so on low, the thought of presenting it to Jesus seems almost too much, I think Jesus I have so little, is there even any use giving it to you? I mean what could you possibly do with the tiny bit I have left? BUT Y’ALL. If He can feed 5,000 people with five loaves of bread and some fish, He can most certainly sustain and satisfy us! If we just choose to trust and give it to Him, he will stretch our resources and satisfy that hunger inside us. The key is finding the courage to surrender the little bit we have to Him rather than holding it on to dear life. He showed his power to bridge the gap and turn the smallest amount I have into plentiful riches to me time and time again, and He can for you too. You just have to present it to Him and let Him do the work.